Thunderous roar heard midnight, nightmare hardly comes to me, but of course later it came to me afterward.

Anybody with own it must have own hope and unease, tries to sleep for next morning.

Mind drifters are so many in commuter trains or busses we usually use, defectors or sleepers who pretend just a national citizen, they think themselves in future only its position, they think anytime can turn to be so.

Thus, they take care of never showing in their behavior to all other crowded commuters their true mind.

They only show any other one in city just national ones even if they are hostile nation’s ones to true national ones. Otherwise, if they are true national citizen, but with objection to them and pretends never to be another idea holder to general ones.

They in deep mind wish to assimilate themselves to general citizens, but at true mind they are all mind defectors in this nation.

They are so similar to refuges, then if they met across true refuges so accidentally e.g. in commuter train or bus, they could never inform its situation to the police or so, in no interest to all social order.

In conclusion, they have yet confessed any true mind to anybody as well as general citizens are so.

These are the scenes we usually can watch and happen to be with in daily life of us in any city, so out of the blue.

However, if we could not be noticed to these incidental facts, it would be the same to what we usually think that nothing would happen.

Probability to come across so incidental things involving myself would be in sequel so low.

But it must never be zero either. It would be so close to be involved in whirlpool of rolling thunder’s circles around out habitual surviving zone for each of us.

In world, settling down at one location all life is the ultimate mission for general citizens, that sort of idea exists to many ones in society, even if so busy headhunting or re-employment to another company in chance are so frequent for the ones.

But how could originally rootless wandering tribal ones take that creed in life or moral?

Even if someone think that his or her whereabout to settle down in their seen promised land, the land is just their ancestors had intruded and plundered all former native ones’ tribal zone sooner or later, eventually they are all with all of us just temporary lodgers either meant in carnally meant world temporarily prier to go to heaven or hell as interim habitants to seen promised land, in no exception, anybody in world.

We are all just invaders’ descendants as sinners, evenly, we just are in a gap so earlier coming there, or so later coming there.

All these are just truth, even if someone attempts to claim it’s untrue, or saying “How can we doubt that that claim or petition to the government by the one is only justified?”

Even all petitions are justified right, if somebody is claiming so, the truth must never be vanished, and all ones in world must be noticed to it, but they are all keeping only silence.

We are all born in no chance nor no proclamation from other somewhat that we are born prior to the birth moment.

We are all never the ones who wanted nor wished to be born prior to our own birth, with own hope nor wish to be out to the world, not intentionally we just are born to this world, just with world circumstance accidentally.

But, at a degree, with its absolute truth, or to say, we can select where we die individually and where we want to die so privately on the contrary to what we could never want nor hope, wish to where to be born.

Coz we are just presence with own will and decision maker at least once we are born so individually.

We can either confront and tide over all crisis with our own hope or intention in assured will, as if we can select where we die privately.

All particular crisis might be our shared object to conquer sometimes together with each arbitrary judging.

Although if we have at least these ideas, we have no circumstance to have bad feeling to all the others, when we truly confront the desperately crucial crisis, we have no leeway to have alternative never accepting to cooperate with or honestly accept it, neither.

Only that thing we can know universally in no exception in world.

When we face that sort of the matter, only we can keep company with each other in no wandering.

Though, no matter what happens to us, so privately completed no problem to world itself must be present as the sole left thing to us.

In world, just arbitrary with circumstance only by world itself, being left of us, only left our necessary mission was to be at the ultimate moment to us what we share all mind together.

Just hence, we are either rolling thunder privately to all the others mutually, thus we might have been able to evade so dangerous situation together, when it storms, so we had better inform mutually all things about whereabout we can stay away from rolling thunder’s route to pass around us, prevent us from being involved with that whirlpool anytime so arbitrarily and so discretionally, coz only for the moment, probably we are born, left to this ground.

(Nov. 4th. 2019)