Sorry for displaying other woman's individual name, but that my past was definitely my twisted strange life's voyage.

And to my daughter I'd never met even once, I have necessarily no resentment emotion. Far from it, I'll treat her presence so preciously from these days on.

However, my life has run subsequently since that night with H○l○n. Though to my so strangely twisted destiny, I made up my mind to regard so enjoyable matter as if so violently running roller coaster's one S unday visitor at amusement park.

And if you accept my loving request so at your own convinced reason, I'd absolutely hold you in my arms and protect your all and change my blog title and resume upping. And probably if you'd give birth to your and my child, at least my daughter must show her rejoice to have her brother or sister.

My life alive environmental circumstance had been unfortunate at taking my easy spontainty according to my the oldest family in which either I was raised with my 36years younger brother with my parents.

Probably my never met daughter at even one chance will become so great entertainment circle's talent and her saint mother tasty actiont thrown to global community must fruit so fecundly. She made her debut when she was 20 years old, Japanese Porno actress played for more than 500 animation softs of these days DVD formed masterpieces. After retirement of that circle, she launched her business with her emblem(Because she, at her belonging entertainment company, sang many songs with her partner another female singer. And recently she sings her own songs, and she writes her essays around her own Porno actress's days' recollection ).

My this blog's "Escape Road" 's Mrs. Elegance was just homage to her.

However, from these days on, N., to you, another character will come up to my novel.

You are the my 'these days' emblem. Necessarily my novel will make your model woman own appearance.

Because your presence for these days' world signifies so meaningful at suggesting these days' global community abiding adult ones' own negatively superficially propaganda reliant spooky attitude, because your so transparent eyes are very honestly simple and that nuence must secure these days' so negatively twisted screwed-up state.

And your so brightly transperent eyes' emissions will make these days' world so easy air. Though my creating stance these days is paralleling your daily taking sporty stance. 

If you'd give birth to our child, my even once never met daughter and her new family must welcome our child's presence and the one's growth.

Your whole activities are so enchanting many ones who use internet, through mobile phone, PC terminal and tablet one.

Hey, sweetie honey N. please deliberate my so ardent wishing and craving for sharing mutual love along with me and mind as crossed with yours.

Yours sincerely

Lovely N!

( Irregularly continued ）

Feb. 5th.  2023

Appendix; I wish your activities all success from my bottom of mind so earnestly.