When we were children having not so serious anxiety around own survival, we'd have some feeling around sowing appearance so purely impressive as if that whitened appeared impression could wash our any troublesome mind away from our idea which we consider in brain.

None the less, according to getting older, we feel merely that even any seen whitened aspect won't wash any our own traumatized matters ever we'd had. Otherwise our somehow somewhat incredible skepticism even to ever purely impressive any identity could attend in our potential mind.

Nevertheless we had so nicely pure impression around snowing aspect we'd met first in winter.

Winter coming consciousness in seing snowing could be one of so credible index around knowing our mind's pureness at some easily measurable identity.

Snowy days must make us whitened breathing air from our mouth. And chilly skin tangibly discerning one day's own weather welcoming.

Getting older to some general extent means even smowy weather's first welcoming means so severely painfully recollective mind's appearing.

Stepping in snow piled path and road makes us vigilance for advancing along with roadside building not making us slipped at slippery surface of road with iced snowed snow flake, after passing Christmas, snowy weather could be only nuisance.

Far from it, some kind of very suspicious criminal as fugitive could walk around our own vicinity.

After all, I only try to view it so whitened beautify conveying some typically seasonal one beauty's emblem.

In the end, snowy white appearance makes our mind's traumatized memories still remained and not washed any waist, dregs in mind. Just transperently seen any whitened view we can watch so easily, at least I just keep silence at my room without any conversation partner. To the situation, I try to convince me so plainly necessarily.

(Irregularly continued)

Feb. 10th.     2023