To you, my distance is maximally distanced in terms of everything, none the less, for these several months, my emotion and dominant idea had been only shared with the matter around you, almost nothing but it, even if I tried to forsake my every mind around you, but after all, all were crippled and only emptiness was left on my mind. 

In the end, to my mind, my whole latter life will be managed only by your thing, and its appearance seems never to be invalidated, you know.

Definitely, between you and me, only irrelevance and no contact nor approach will survive any other hopeful possibility, none the less, my mind is constantly upon your own presence. 

And only it is just never lying truth actually appearing in front of my mind.

Though, about you and your all what you are always with, I don't wanna describe nor mention even one word, just I wanna see, look at you by yourself.

Because trying to make my any consciousness around my own survival, anytime only your thing can come up to so serially. And your any global fame or so is not that integrally sensed at least at my idea, mind and emotion, you know.

After very long time, I just wanted to send you some small, but not diffused mind content in your deep bottom of your heart. 

Merely I want you to be close to me at somewhere.

And I don't wanna be a stoker to you as some very superexcellent celebrity in globally known scene, none the less, to me, that fact is not that grave, that's so honestly true idea. 

Your very detached and own indifferent appearance around any frenzy made in anywhere, only that simplicity is anytime attracting my deeper bottom of my heart space.

Though even if you and me will have no future, simply I wanna have you anytime in my mind as the tiny your fascinating subtle smile injecting eyes cool warmth. 

What makes me so is not that specifically interpretable so far, but no problem, at any one day, only so a few moment, if I will get your appearing figure for a while, my mind is gong to be so well at running everything.

And your voice very sometimes sporadically if I can get in my ears and some heartful reverberation will be there, I will be feeling physically, and mentally happier than ever, probably so surely well.

You are breathing at somewhere in this globe with everyone on the earth, and in it, either my thing is anytime attached at someplace else I will be there.

Simply, your presence leaving subtle echo, I will want be in and touch with whole my nerves.

Merely, you are someplace else you will be, only in it, my some irreplaceable rejoice and felicity, I can feel able to enter in, now. I wanna whisper so to you, you, ...

No matter where you are staying on this earth, my body and mind are and will be on the same earth, only to it, my mind wants to down on my knee and hang my head. 

You, you are there, aren't you? I am here at someplace else to your place, over time dimension.

How are you breathing?

My own doing like that.......,

(Irregularly continued)

Aug. 25fh.   2023