Duelly was not specifically noticed around contraception at the younger scholar man on one bed. When she had one night with him, she remembered her raised environmental West Hamstead very fecunaly greened whole appearance, when she was younger, she pictured some romantic loving scene in her mind and brain.  That moment, the partner's own any feature was not that clearly imagined, those days her pictured the partner would have been last night mutually one night spending one, she thought so either.  

She that day had to head for the studio for tuning around new single and album content ultimate meeting whth her producer. He was very reliably asking deserving guy, though, in her idea, she made up her mind to create this seasonal new project as her infantile days mindfully enlightening own soulful home landscape at simple poetic mentioning not so strategically as the term of sales or so. 

She for long years had respected veteran deva, Adela, and occasionally she confessed own idea on her mind to older deva, and the words by her at any occasion very cheered and it was very usefully helping even crippled mind state by any pressured around first recording and releasing or first stage singing in front of audiences.  

 

But this time, she had no that helpful power from the outside for herself, because she had conviction around doing any thing so well than any already experienced recording for her career. Because she obviously had own specific ideas, that was aireal own current guiding singing mind for lyrical message and that outcome deriving own her raised home country landscape and her own memory.

In other words, this time she made up her mind to head for and earnestly grapple with recording on singing, not artificially strategical idea guiding stance, but on her, Ms. Adela was seven years veteran to her as well as real years old, though some small cheering words were so bravery pushing significance, but this time, she after 10 years since her debut, for the first time, any that words had no necessity around launching recording on singing.

And, certainly, the last night the younger scholar egg man's hugging to her encouraged her some pressured trembling mind, but this time she had mind as no need to be pushed from behind of her by anybody.

Until this time, she mainly regarded her stance as very timely cheering message to these days whole people and any her fan around her, that intending stance was remarkably strong, but for the first time, she was enlightened by her newly budding idea. That was daringly not cheering any fan nor any these days people, rather positively daring to encourage herself, and through the stance, she tried to develod future pioneerable feasibility around establishing more evolved singing motivation. 

And that mind pushing first one was not so mutually friendly nor having not that specifically familiar relationship, that US so successful very younger deva, Ms. Billa Scottish. Necessarily, definitely, to her only imminently conceived own private idea, not publicizing to anyone. But that mindset was at least for her, very necessary and useful for addressing to new project into recording on singing. 

  (Really how she had own mindset tas unknown so necessarily. But at least at her taking public stance and showing appearance in front of any audience, she even if at bluffing to any public, that strongly motivated attitude was very refer abiding, at least for those days her.)

 

She once breathed in and out stood by recording in front of microphone.

（Irregularly continued)

Sep. 15th.  2023