For the first term, l and the old lady were living at each other own room at originally her and her now deceased husband home house sharing to each other and only I costed my renting room to her, gradually except sleeping time, we together spend at one dining room for making good ideas around surviving as not losing memory ones as evasively not contacting National seceret police organization own team as to not losing memory ones as own citizens were aimed at dangerously affecting possible ones for them.

In other words, very ultimately conservative idea attending ones of them were aiming at only not losing one's own conspiratory ideas around endangering negative factor for ordinary society. Though, necessarily, that very elegant old lady and I had to protect ourselves by ourselves, that necessity was more than ordinary situation so seriously integral and grave for  two of us as I and her, elegant old lady. 

Of course, otherwise, any other not losing memory one must have been secretly surviving these days so abnormal situation, you know, but, they also must need to protect them by themselves perfectly never telling the truth to anybody except them, as if they were Jews who were having extreme anxiety around endangering their each life toward or against imminently to Nati Gestapo or so as these days own National Police organization, so skillfully, that must be nothing but telling nothing around their true mentality and circumstances to anybody except them. No other method must be effective.

Though, from our own ordinary life survival strategy, necessarily, we two were gradually becoming so not being talkative, but rather very silently not talking only keeping silence favorable one the same home at each room as if very indifferently contacting at condominium residential habitants to each other, so actually.

Our own very exceptional common life had been serially done on us as that old lady and me, and to ordinary citizens, our relationship was probably regarded as some remote pedigree kin family one or so, and than I had some anxiety, socially, our own cohabitant life was never seen so not ordinary, that was to us some mindful rescuing factor to us, definitely, though governmental abnormally executable not memory losing ones purging policy was certainly very extraordinarily abnormal, but simultaneously, to us, all we must do is merely not telling anything around 10 years social things as the suddenly almost all ones had lost those ten years whole memory about three months and several days ago. 

Anyway, we had to be so bravely not having unnecessary anxiety, because mentally having those ideas must make our ow; expression easily interpretable to anybody who can easily gaze at our own expreseion at relatively close distance from us. 
In other words, as much as possible pretending to be ordinary citizens were to us given minimal mindset for keeping our own lives safer not at confronting any unnecessary risky factor to us.

Nevertheless, unexpectedly to us as very mutually strangely associably common life spending own age and generation gapped one couple formed state was not so unpleasant sensible life, far from it, also very exciting nature life to each other, and necessarily in society the couples with any form also the ones not like us could have the same circumstances, that very possible conjecture was coming and going on my mind, probably my own partner that old lady either, so felt and inferred.

By the way, occasionally my accompanying destined that old lady talked to me, saying, "My own sons were settling at so remotely prefecture, but once in a year, they came back to my place no matter where I live as settling a dress, but to some strangely mutual accompanying circumstance, we are otherwise another typed one very necessary family fellows, you know." That her so solidarity associable encourraging words thrown to me was very cheerfully encourraging my heart and mind which by and large could be inclined to mutually only formally indifferently mutually attached mind at that her saying moment for me, you know. 

Anyway, for a while, our own common settling life continued at certainly stable days for putting up with our own condition and situation as very different from ordinary memory losing citizens as majority people. 

(Irregularly continued)

Oct. 17th.    2023