Anybody could be troubled at mind what we personally should carry on, but occasionally only no answer could react us. Nevertheless just if we withdraw any trial from the difficulty, it doesn't make sense, in other words, when we get some so troublesome road we are on for carrying on something done, we could reach some no regret satisfaction, and that accomplishing must guide us to next so exact phase, at the moment we could get some certain value for us.

In spite of all efforting trial, we are having so unfortunate misscarriage at last when we bring the last card, nothing to discard anymore, then we need some advice by God's merciful wisdom. If you can have another object at the moment, your missfortune is relatively so lighter than you feel in your mind, because you keep still hope and demand to your future.

But, if your mind keeps only emptiness and vacant feeling to anything you try to recover your mind for restarting, you need absolutely some help from the outside of your mind.
Because your mind holding so stiff fender could be eroded so rusty and you need to recover your guard for your home and car, or anything.

However, nevertheless at these very down and out situation, you have still painkiller at your sleepless night, you dare to spend rather sleepless night, as necessary as insomniac diagnosed by your doctor. But you should ambitiously take it into advantage for healing your injured mind.

All armours guarding me must be eroded with my car bumpers, and fender I anytime necessarily but unconsciously arm and equip with my body, mind, soul, and heart, even that must be eroded with many windy air assaulting my body and mind, but I desperately try to evade and dodge them all, but anything could never be done by me, in conclution, unnoticedly, my armed fender makes yellow and red rust, nevertheless that appearnce attracts me either, because these color seemed to shine and guide me to very easy paradise before I go to bed at night.

Eroded fender night, you must prepare for me very sunny shined bright day again, if you were never existing beside me, my mind must last its cloudy shadow and heavy darkness all day long even at sunny and warmer day.

But, today, until the deep night, please make you appear in front of me, because after I identify you, my idea immediately was made to the opening to see nightmare as unwelcome introduction to Satanic night time for me, you know.
(to be continued)

(Nov. 7,8,9th. 2020)