There's the time everything could be running all in vacant feeling.
There's the time everything could be denial in selecting for something.

But, no problem, anytime I call my mind intentionally trying not to make me serious, coz that chasing me must annoy me subsequently next moment, just I know it so well, at least at the kind of time.

There's some place-else we can enjoy or make us composed as favorite spot, but we are not apt to want confession of it to anybody, me neither.

If we confess it even to the closest friend, that place's special identity to be relative to nothing would be invalidated, you think so, don't you? Me either, so completely, you know.

Thereby, I either should see my some so irreplaceable thing in my past days like that reason to exist, I sometimes try to regard it as to be like so.

Time must consistently brings all encounter and parting evenly seing them just passing identity.

How we can judge our irreplaceable thing in past for us personally would be the absolutely never changeable one mind only for us, so privately, you know.

That mind held for me at tending to do nothing could tempt us so unexpectedly to only empty sensitivity, but any sense of wonder could come out to us, only at that want could be met. Is it so convincing to you?

Nobody could never take own feeling seen so objective on general feeling, because even it must be either our own judging in mind.

Then, anytime I conclude, just close my eyes, and meditate around so unforgettable thing or any other personal things from past to now.

So, at the moment, unconsciously I hang around unidentified empty it in presumably kind of satisfaction, that might be just what closing is upcoming, if that was true, no problem.

Because only durably perceived time must be nothing but mine, even if it was never satisfaction.

(Nov. 10. 2020)