Brighter light and purely transperent air makes me guided to walk around over our vicinity.
That my body is not so unique, never yet that commonplace, even it must be either anonymous at least to me, unexpexctedly to anybody so, I can feel so together otherwise so pesronally.

But many mind holding issues could never stay away from out mind's bottom either to me, that's true, but even to it I can never be care, honesly speaking only that sensation could be under control, that means only inactive and never so spontanous seisibitily must be so correct seen to my mind, you know, because winter daytime warmth is so shortened and fragile and it drives us to be infected with corona virus so easily to and from anyone.

Never yet, all so personal mind issues are just seen so fragile to me either, you know, all these just persistently stay at my own emotion, nevertheless we must keep going on serially lasting our daily routine, but morning seen so usual could be changed so certainly as those days were, to some extent so gradually but to another extent so immediately and abruptly to us, and me.

We could never be caught so much so subtly at these days situation all human share together, persoinal and individual issue is seen eliminated and dismembered so complelty, but my selfish desire to get over and survive must be present on my mind so persistently.

However, very lighted all clear landscape makes me go out from my room, and air and plants are very usual as they normally are, never changed so much, but only we are at mind confusion, with pets or animals, we could never make us as plants are.

Anyway at shortened lighted time, late starting of my walk must make me hasten to my home again. and after going home, nevertheless winter mornings' sunny daylight and clear air is felt and tangibly so refreshened and confortable even at a little caught to be a cold.

That short daylight beauty and cold fresh air evokes our own life, but yet I have certain detachment to this life, but not so at lingering attachment, originally the kind of emotion has been so thiner to me. 

Eventually, unless I could be infected with corona virus from anybody, however, many ones are sacrificed, my personal feeling could be sane, never yet, very pitilessly and miserably cruelly but my mind could be so easy and even comfortable to me.
(to be continued)

Dec. 20th. 2020