If I try to grip at once, when I almost get that, anytime you disturb me, teasing me naughtily!

And after all, you are gone away from me indifferently, nevertheless, that is nothing but what I want to acquire so honestly!

Only for getting it, any day is spent to me, so continuously.
Nevetheless, that thing is hardly gotten at me, anytime I try.

Eventually, constantly I get it that only ongoing thing could be indifferent with me.

Fixed somewhat in my mind, getting action and that object's obtention.
Nevertheless, these all completed could make me see kind of illusion.
Really I just get fantasy in the worset time in spite of that I know it, immpossible overture.

Nevertheless, I anytime try to complete it at each occasion, and necessarily it'd never be default.
That makes sense also what I fail it, some mind that getting intention is just empty that I should give it up. However, that is wrong, after all that empty mind won't be long, strangely.

Nevertheless, otherwise, to what I've tries to grip so well, and that could be familliar with and try to keep it, so preciously, we'd never have unnecessary idea, nor even so enthusiastic desire to get something completely could be right to us, essentially, you know!

Not having acqisition so surely in persistent mind of me makes me cry, not controllably emitting the word, "Hey, are you dying one's given the last Shangri-La?"

Never yet, when my mind is screwed up, even that acting by me makes me have otherwise wicked one's easy come and being deeply happy forever until the one dies or evil-minded one's happy ending, either otherwise despite of lighter than former accosiations, but more really, slump Marathon runner's approaching goal, or very tough situation providing Bran joy or insomniac poet's dreamy fantasy mometarily coming and passing in the middle of night of his.

Presumably, knowing only present thing is so enogh for us, I know it so well, nevertheless in fact I opted my job just at taking only it not so satisfied with me, then now I desperately make sentences everyday, gloaning all the day, you see!

Necessarily, either generally we all are prone to get another somewhat anytime making own dissatisfaction to our life mode, and everytime that mind tortures our life.

Actually or to say, very plainly, human thing after getting wanting thing, very generally could make another wanting thing again and again, even it'd be just fragile fantasy to us.

Nevertheless, contemporary society by itself takes it justice, and I either am really invlved with that own reality.
Consequently, I either conclude that exactly to anything, only having resignation is not better to us, never yet that mind affects our own progress, but these are just general opinion, my case is just disrinctive, I anytime make only useless going around the same circle.

Even if it'd be incorrect, I make my enemy win myself, so how can I set ultimate goal by myelf? Otherwise, either should I set it together with any other one?

From the beginning, is that thing what we should do personally from the beginning to conclusion, otherwise, we should personally arbitrarily try to do everything daringly diffrently from any other one? Together wanting? Or not together wanting just alone?

Is that inquiry to the absolute truth?

Only relatively regarded satisfaction eventually could dissatisfies our mind, necessarily my mind too.
Though, just because of these, absoluteness could be necessary to us, so really, couldn't it?

However, probalby you couldn't reply my asking.

How could we get only so convincible, convictual, or convictable truth?

Otherwise, that wisdom in wishing either is only fantasizing mind, is it? 
Gee, please tell me about it as true thing to us, and me, precisely making me known, my God!

Oct. 21st., 22nd.   2021