Midst so colder winter, probably anybody can easily have some introspective idea than summer heated days. 

Some unforgettable shadow of any personally lovable matters attached our own mind, me either, not that exceptionally taken back to a little bit older days from now. 

People can be awakened from some serially tension made days so easily, but afterward, unexpectedly to anybody, easily gradually gotten older days comes to us, so personally. 

Nevertheless, true life running must begin at that awareness comming days we can be noticed to our own subconscious mind around while external phenomenal things.

Heartful winter has two typed ones. One is tangibly physiological coldness, another is very metaphysically, or mentally chilly feeling dimensional one. 

Ultimately, according to each person, the way of feeling sensibly for winter coldness is different. Additionally, mentally, spiritually, satisfied and not that conditioned gap makes us each own winter coldness, bodily and mentally, and body and mentality are not so easily divided mutually.

Winter is probably assorted according to each individual, in frank, each one has each own coldness tangible way or kind of felt nuance. Thus strictly to anybody the perfectly the same felt winter was never existing. 

Brotherhood or so was at least to me, not that reliable nor credible spiritual assets to us, at least to me so. After all, ultimately not lovable emotion in affection, only survival power or not attending it, only the condition will be left at the last stage for survival. 

Only spiritually, physically sturdy ones will survive any kind of harshly colder winter, not that ones will die, only that fate will welcome to us, but in the other hand, only extremely executing bargaining chip coul be left, to us, some spiritually chilly emotion must be produced at immanent mind on us. Though that balancing could be so integral.

Strictly, we can never sense any other one's own coldness sensing and measurable physiological tangible feeling. No identified felt state is left to any other one but ourselves. 

Imagining is neither so effective, only to us, absolutely the one as own myself sensing is left on us. No other one's sensed feeling is at least at materialistically none sense.  
Nevertheless, occcadionally, we have the time to sympathize to any not that close relashionship attending one, even to the ones, very sometimes, we can have some sympathy. 

E.g. even at the closest kin or family, with some irresistibly not closely settling but remotely doing so that condition must make us own indifference around having attached mind or so.

I hate sentimentalism. But I love unexpectedly materialism, because I unexpectedly love building jungle, but getting older, occasionally, I feel some nostalgic emotion or sweet recollection around childhood days as spring, autumn or so with flowers, green leaves, reddened leaves or so. 

Those landscape appearance makes me spiritually vivid at having future hope or not in difference as mentally conditioned our own each time spending mental state. 

I hate democracy, do nobility, do either sentimentalism. I hate sweetie mellow contacting and approaching to anything, only very drought, dry sensing is constantly convincing to my own sense. 

(Irregularly continued)

Jan. 26th.   2024