Passion and intelligent knowhows are mutually seen segregated but out of the blue, each one might have been so similar, but rarely they meet together, just only so, I feel.

However, two things yell its identity so loudly very irrelevantly but so outstandingly to me constantly.

Our life consistently is shredded to two completely irrelevant items in our brain and either society trend or our surrounded environment.

Although all phenomenal things are never in whirlpool. It means nothing of suffering, usually unless mentally diseased mind occupies our life.

Impulse and intellect are mutually separated usually, or in our mind, although these completely differing to each other, although both outstandingly claim us simultaneously, in terms of the fact both in similar elemental being to us, either.

Both constantly bid me react them to each other, but I have anytime own procrastination to them.

How should we deal with this reality?
Otherwise, that thing is only for me, so outstanding, isn’t it? Otherwise, anyone but me must be in same circumstance mustn’t anyone?
But truly, in its absurd environment, how we can find own truly meant love to something or somebody, only it is the crucial issue to anybody, isn’t it?

Impulse shouting mind oppressed by my frantic reason is anytime so calmly composed, on the contrary, its thing is never so safe seen to me either, but only reason always so flabbergasted as if impoverished tart who was getting mug guy’s dong licked by her tongue on street corner brothel.

Another myself claims me to chase my losing intellect of my past I’d held those days so strictly but now lost, but I react it saying “All intellectual items are nurtured with carnally slovenly taboo, so in depth of myself either, but another myself logically replied to my opinion,
“That was an idea held at modern ages of 19century by general people, now we at least at 21century. We are never so romantic, nor decedent atmosphere, already you know.”

Where has gone all our own responsibility?
Where could we find it either in group or so? Is that nation? Or government? CEOs of Bigger enterprises? Investors? Otherwise, our age’s uncertainty?

If we are aware of all faces, and expression, or complexion whatever we try to make trick as the objects as customers, nation or any case, as being in capitalism world, we must be so tough in being responsible, it either could be said to our mind so privately, couldn’t it?

In all so entangled situation and human and group connection, how can we make sure of our position and responsible necessity to us? But even if we did it so well, how can we get stably peaceful mind to us?

So stark, would we find the place to nurture truly meant and convincing love mutually?

If there’s somewhere, where is that place?

“I would never be come-on of cheating one anytime in my lifetime.”
My mind shouts at every morning and night before going to my bed.
(Dec. 22nd. 2019)