J◯p◯n has at least to me, not any other member probably except Vito, seemed to be perfectly the country in which women had own discriminated circumstance historically, because all women had implicitly been forced to be only good wife and mother for children between her own husband. The women in the country had been demanded only obedient one for husband as Ryou sai Ken bo(良妻賢母), but in it, at least for conservative husbands, human right had never been taken into account, to my views, the impression was done on my mind. 

Those are to me, the longest staying country's own impression, anyway, this is to them,  J◯p◯n◯s◯, my held own impression. 

After all, Craig's temptation to me to join with his syndicate was never showing any ending, my mind by itself was extremely leaning on acceptance, that was necessarily derived from my emotionally done reason to want me to have reunion with Tania, and no other woma, lady had not moved my mind except her, that was my own life. And doing my job as agent staying in foreign countries, my own terminal had inserted Craig's own seductive talk, and in it, to me, the most impressive one was like next.

"Nobody subjectively wants to be managed by any other one. Nevertheless, after all nobody can manage any other one but the one, essentially, though anybody tries to discover some seen the best compromizable way for survival, for instance, these days one of the most miserable thing we should truly solve is just R◯ss◯◯n invading war with Ukr◯◯n◯, but the sole way for doing so well could be assasination of President P◯t◯n, but the assassin should be the same nationality one of his, no other one won't be appropriate, only his people one should do so. But after all, that must be so hardly done, any other one could try to do so, but almost doing must be blocked with previously conspired own protective scheme by his ones around him. If it'd be so, I will even cooperate with him, that is my own life philosophy." 
When I listened to the talk content, my whole body skin was suddenly showing own chilly sensed tangible reaction. After all, derailed elite programmer life road own atrociously fearful side was shown to me, that talk heard moment made me feel so. After all, he had never become B◯ll G◯t◯s, nor St◯v◯ J◯bs, nor so. 

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My own temporary agent who was dispatched as not formally employed but almost illegally employed own road will be seen the last running path or so which will approach, the left orbit was so small and short distance both objectively and subjectively.

Probably almost ones must show only partial side to any other one, nevertheless, nobody must be pretend to be perfectly different emotionally showing to anybody, in other words, nobody is perfect at pretending to be another one, the case doesn't discriminate, professionals as agent abroad as well.

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One day, I was walking around my those days renting one small apartment building mainly interspersed parks, in fact, some dubious atomosphere was felt at my own back sensing, though I occasionally looked back to my own backgrounded any location, but necessarily I got no proof around somebody who aimed my own thing. But in fact, at least to my own sense, some chilly sense was actually done on my own nerve. But simultaneously those days my life was really needed so nervous sprit around any personally doing as investigating and collecting deta around my missioned any matter. Thus some my own spirit could have caused my own feeling that fantasy, thus as much as possible, I tried not to regard the thing so extremely anxious, but that own chilly sense was never stopped for a whiAfter that typed my those days exceptional sufferable sense given days, one day, I had made up my mind to walk around low mountainous zones for coordinating my own bodily condition, and that day, at least at earlier morning to nearer time zone around noon, not that worse weather, though I tried to make further location my own hiking course, thus with several trains I headed to S◯◯t◯m◯ prefecture's one very nature environmentally suitable  location almost village typed town Y◯r◯◯ Machi, and certainly my walking condition I was given at the day, very ideally, though I tried to drop in any very nice atomosphere and scenery performance providing temples, and shrines, but after passing noon and when I walked along one thin country road by myself, suddenly cloudy weather was made to also me, of course, at least to me, that moment, nobody except me was confirmed at least by me, naturally, and almost shower could assault my own walking line, and to it, being anxious, actually rain started to drop from one to gradually heavily showering and consequently I was assaulted by shower so suddenly after I was noticed with cloudily switched climate, though I tried to evade rain dropping stroke, and for the first time when I walked only for seeking after some evading location for protecting my body from moistened by heavy shower, and actually, some deep forest with seen so rigidly heavy rocks gathered location was seen so safer at securing my body never drained by rain, and really it was so successfully done on me, and I for a while, held on at one seen so safer zone as not drained by raindrops so heavily. And actually that location was ideally effective at least for making me not drained by rain drops. But after I could confirm that heavily assenting shower ceased after drained whole ground at a stretch, though I started to get back that time walking path, but this time I was noticed at what I forgot my passing route so hardly be found cerrectly as my once padding route. Because that moment I only desperately tried to evade rain drop heavily showering condition, though I had no enough mind spiritually for taking care of learning correct route by my heart so strictly, thus I got lost at low mountain path, though I took my mobile phone, and tried to know the location I was there, and making my mind so easy, and I tried to use the route my mobile phone indicating at the moment, at that my terminal positioning point, one some horse voiced old man was conceived by my perception, and that was at least to me familiar voice. 

(To be continued)

Apr. 3rd.    2024