Mat was questioned by Lily’s brother who was so loved and good intimacy to his older sister,
“Did Lily my sister have to be dead in her mission? Was it so necessary?”
He honestly asked Mat, he didn’t answer anything. He had no wisdom to make Lily’s left family members know so well of her death meaning, nobody would never do so.

Jeff said goodbye to everybody who participated in Lily’s funeral and he left there, and Mat was talking to Tim and two men was walking along memorial grave yard toward the sea view beautiful landscape cliff.
Surely Jeff’s instructive advice was reasonably, but at a rate, for Mat, Jeff was the older relation ones at the connection of this time incidental sequel with a pitiless ending with miserable shooting battle of National Guard troops with sleepers of them unnecessary members for General Shocker meant that General’s egoistical conspiracy to guard only himself in exchange for odd troops for a kind of plea bargaining, but Tim said to Mat just after Lily’s funeral,
“Originally, Lily’s act was so justified with police officers’ morale, but eventually her shooting target was Superintendent’s wife missing with its reason unknown, then nobody claimed Lily’s death’s evaluation, ordinarily her emergent judgement discretionally just and appropriate, but her promotion after death was never applied to her case, and anybody connected with police organization had kept silence never claim anything, namely anybody were known to that Lily’s sniping target was Superintendent, everybody in the police organization had each scare to Superintendent, then her funeral was never honored at the name of police, that was so sorry also to me, but also I have no way to deal with that contradiction, if she was never sniping her, Mat, you may had been dead at that moment.”
Listening to Tim’s saying, Mat couldn’t help but thinking of this time miserable result in obvious discernment between the human relation before his runaway travel with Mrs. Elegance and it after it, extreme gap must be present either to him.
His desperate effort to flee from last-ditch situation must never be understood by Jeff or old pals, but Tim was completely different, Mat first met him after that involvement with Mrs. Elegance in meeting by her chance to him.
Two men were talking about Lily’s memory, Tim was telling Mat about the mission memory with her, Mat was telling Tim the memory about his meeting to her for the first time. That day was kind of so, passed the moments.

Near a year had passed after Mat’s parting to Lily and that so miserable result his runaway travel abroad, but human-beings are never able to think only of past memory, anybody must survive for the day as the present, also he continued his job as a detective, and he started half a year ago, first form of his job was only he investigated everything and only when he was so busy, Jeff helped his job in diverse meaning with many kinds of working, but he employed some younger members, he operated the groups and also sometimes, Jeff helped him.
His doing was sometimes engaging in also dangerous mission as commissioned investigations or so, but so many cases are for example cheating investigation, of course even it has also dangerous scene meeting possibility was never absent, but comparatively never so dangerous, of course he was ex-police officer, then at his career age he had trained so hard, and even now he trained often running, mountain climbing, or stretch exercise or so.
He could never forget that sad incident, but gradually, his consciousness was getting to be in next phase for researching next future his mission.
That was so connected with bigger organization’s collapse, of course, that stance was raised and spurred with his five days’ hard process last year’s new year eve involvement, but in his mind than his experience urging mission feeling, more important mindset was fed by his consciousness and enlightened to be another mission feeling.
Surely his country was unstable situated and its reason was relation to the nations around his nation, but as far as concerned with his known domain, he thought that its country must reform more precisely in business regard, more purified Capitalistic order, for example money laundering astray habit was currently rampant to all around the nation, that thing must need help with Tim and his pal, activist Paul’s wisdom, at the matter of fact to him, many commission was told to his office, gamble business’s investigation was often offered to him either.
That business in widened range of this nation has gained ground and many younger generation men and women were involved with many hidden businesses.

In other words, relatively at degree of industrial, economic impact to whole world, the US authority had got to be decreased and enfeebled all over the world, the US is desperately own industrial and economical hegemony keeping, then rather, for example in hegemony of the US. leading censorship of any illegal business devise with money laundering or black market has influenced with many technicians, engineers, entrepreneurs who are interested in Mexico, Cuba, Haiti or any other Middle and South American nations as the target to be developed by them, not only Cayman or Bahamas but also so many countries for instance, the blacklisted them in censorship of the US watching system have been to many those countries for example watch system in casino or money laundering system and illegal currency exchange office development around the technology or so, then Chinese engineers or entrepreneurs, or Korean, Saudis, they had tried to use the route with Cuba which was involved with Russia, after expiring Obama age, then they target niche market and chance of business, they are no longer interested in the US or EU, Japan, or so, namely they are trying to evade as much as possible US rule as globalism hegemony, then Lily’s sacrifice was also resulted with those trend wholly over the world in hegemonic struggle between the US and China. Lily was also involved with General Shocker’s conspiracy connected with age systematic shift to another phase. Then her funeral has completely absence of any police organization concerned ones in mourning, then surely Mat’s mind held the revenge to him and rehabilitation of Lily’s honor as a superior martyr of miserable incident in Puerto-Rico. But for fulfilling its object, he must be involved with sweeping toward black market impacted by many never global capitol stream or human resources’ stream into his country and he has to grasp all of those matters.
Lily’s brother Freddie aimed at becoming a professional interpreter after graduating language university, then Mat sometimes requested his help in speaking and listening of Chinese or Korean, Arabic or so.
(to be continued)

(Jan. 19. 2019)

Contacted with one and another means each individual is different to each other, any individual is unexceptionally independent thing, in other words, any being itself is each apart, these truths themselves.

If everything is homogeneus and just only in symbiosis, a meaning held by contacting couldn’t be born.

Thus, anything but heterogeneous individual in each apart way to be must never be called contact.
It means crash, wever, and friction.
Fusion also must be so diverse, but as long as never having a contact between one heterogeneous and another it any individual must never be one in diversity.

Homogeneus things’ gathering must never be fusion, it’s just assembly only in gathering.
Therefore, in stable assembly sometimes fusion with each different, as the heterogeneous must occur inherently.

(Jan. 19th. 2019)

Mat was in his home country, but at that day, he mourned his dead lover. He lost his preciously beloved one who had intimate relationship with him several years only with accidental meeting to a woman who had only intimate three days relation but at fourth day after meeting together, had been robbed by other man’s conspiracy and six days after meeting, being dead, that six days changed Mat’s life, and lost things were extraordinarily bigger than he would imagine.
On the hill of the local area Lily was born, her funeral was proceeding with her family and friends.
Mat looked at every participants of her funeral, at a glance to each one so rapidly.
Lily’s brother, sister, Jeff, his wife, Tim, his colleagues with the same mission to investigate missing middle-aged woman who was dead at the same day of Lily’s anniversary day of her death, a pastor was read one passage from the Bible, and every participant listened to it, so quietly, many ones closing their eyes.

Mat remembered the few ten minutes ago, when he first arrived at her new grave marker, he was with Lily’s brother and sister, and soon Jeff arrived there with his wife, looking at Mat’s face, and said soon after greeted only with eye contact and face moving,
“Only a week I’ve never seen your face, but your it was so changed to be drawn, haggardness of you makes me imagine how tough your travel for the days was, but what the hell did your way-worn travel give you something? Possibly nothing you know, rather, you lost everything, didn’t you?”
Mat was saying so slowly to his saying,
“I know so well, but now I have no words for the present. Just…”
“Just what?”
“At last everything may had been a destined thing to me and Lily, either.”
Mat after deleting any misty mind darkness said to Jeff, he responded with his honest question,
“By the way, how precious was your meeting to that woman? Was that that valuable to the being of that woman daring to cost Lily’s life so precious of you, essentially? Costing your beloved lover for getting strange woman you’d never met ever.”
To that question of Jeff, Mat had nothing to reply.

Lily’s brother as high school student next year would graduate, Lily’s seventeen sister was weeping so in sorrow but voiced nothing next Mat.
Mat was in an idea how he would sustain her left brother and sister.
Mat was making up his mind to keep his detective job also from that moment on to the long future.

After expiring her funeral pastor’s greeting, her coffin was buried to her graveyard, and before burying, at a glance everybody as the participants of her funeral looked her face, it was so beautiful as she was so usually.
Some colleagues with the same mission to her was devoting bouquet beside her face.

After every process to morn her death, Jeff approached Mat and said,
“I can understand your mind being in a strong emotion to revenge that one, but even if you did so successfully, how would Lily’s brother and sister survive from that moment on. They were raised by Lily.”
After sighing for a second, and he continued,
“If you are willing to continue your job, I’ll help you as I’ve done until now, but if you try to revenge him, you would never return to you as honest lover and gentle citizen, as you are now. In other words, you must bring you about the road your target old man who killed Lily, you could never help but following footprints he must had left in his lifetime.”
Listening to his saying, Mat for a while silently thinking his saying meaning, and urged Jeff to continue his claim to him,
“ In other words, you mean you walk in the toughest way on thorn road, that old man has walked ever, as long as you are doing job of private detective, as I did, I’ll help you from now on, but so risky revenging act would never be accepted to me, possibly, of course that old man is just the share enemy also to Lily’s family, but how will your revengeful mind share them all, so easily, it must be so risky.”
He who was whispering his saying words, tried to soothe Mat’s resentment.
However, also Jeff was in so entangled emotion, that emotional contradictory atmosphere was either shown to Mat, and he was ascertained to it, either.
(to be continued)

(Jan. 19th. 2019)